I didn't really know what to write about this week. I don't have a specific topic. So, I'm just going to tell you about my week. It was a rough one, but ended well!
At the beginning of the week Ed was working night shift. That is just never a good time for either of us. I get home from work just after 6 and he is out the door by 6:15 at the latest. On Monday we literally kissed goodbye in the driveway and that was our interaction for the day. It seems that this is typical of the lifestyle here. Especially in this area, where a lot of the jobs are manufacturing jobs. Many of our friends and family members have said this is how they spent years of their lives until they worked "up the ladder". However, last weekend and the beginning of this week my Aunt and Uncle let us borrow their dog (puppy therapy is legit) and that really brightened our mood and helped us to not feel so lonely. The middle of this week seemed to drag on... the weather couldn't make up its mind and it seemed like the weekend would never come. Then Friday I got what I am assuming is the flu (only lasted 24hrs)... that was AWFUL and Ed was on 12 hour days. So, I was alone and sick and when he came home he was tired. Saturday was a good day for me. I got A LOT done around the house, I went grocery shopping and I cleaned Huey's cage. Sunday I didn't feel like doing much of anything.... So, I didn't. Ed came home after working 3 days of 12 hour shifts and wanted to take me out on a date!! It was great. I knew he was exhausted. But, he tried not to show it. Its really amazing how the simplest gesture (like opening the door and letting me go first) can still make my heart melt. He knows how to make me smile.
Beyond the end of this week when Ed took me for a date; this is very typical of our life here in America, and from what I can tell it's a typical week for most people. You don't see your friends, you don't see much of your family, and yet you still don't have much time to focus on you. You would think if you're not seeing people very often you would have a lot of time for self-care. But, that doesn't seem to be the case. I guess it's because it's not that you don't see people: It's that the only people you see are your colleagues. I have to admit. I have some pretty great, kind and understanding colleagues. But, it's still not the same, I need friendships and I need my husband. I also need time to focus on me. Maybe that will be our focus for my next blog entry. What self care means to me. Anyways...
Today I am off of work. I will be off of work for awhile now. Until our next adventure begins. Today, I feel more like myself than I have in months. I can feel a smile on my face without forcing it. Ed wants to take me on ANOTHER date tonight (it may be Tbell, but thats ok). He makes me feel like the luckiest girl. I know he would do anything to make sure I am happy. Its great to be in a relationship where you both feel that way. Today is a good day.
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